– If you had told me 4-5 years ago what a man is, how he should behave, how he should understand a woman, I would have said that "ARE YOU CRAZY I need things like this".
How was I?
I was so mentally closed that I didn't want to hear about psychology courses, personal development, or anything else in this area.
I was so closed in perspective that I had "horse vision" and I wouldn't let myself see the truth, I just wanted to be in line with society so as not to be rejected.
I was so closed off that I knew inside that I had another passion, another desire to do things, another purpose, but on the outside I was just following the world's opinion.
I was so closed off and frustrated that I accepted anything, even if those things bothered me, I didn't say anything. I was so GOOD GUY so much so that I would please everyone just to be accepted by them. I always tried not to upset anyone, not to bother anyone, not to say what I thought and felt.
I was so afraid that I was always looking for excuses when I should have taken action, looked for solutions.
I was so shy and embarrassed that you looked at the expression on my face and felt sorry for me.
– If you had told me 3 years ago that I would end up having a page where I could offer my perspective and experience, help people, do it out of love, I would have said that "IT SEEMS HARD, IT'S NOT EASY".
– If you had told me 3 years ago that I would end up being much more energetic, balanced, I would have told you that "I AM ALREADY", but inside me there was a huge storm.
What did I have?
I had such a lack of confidence in myself that I didn't think I would be able to take that page to such a level.
I had such low self-esteem that I believed every man who came into my life and told me that "YOU WILL NOT SUCCEED", I believed him.
I was so pessimistic that if the Nobel Prize were offered for "The Most Pessimistic Man," I would win it.
I was so emotionally repressed that I didn't show my feelings or emotions at all, I was just a stone wall.
I always put a mask on my face to hide who I really am.
– But after all this, now, if you had told me all those things I would say “DA" – loud, resolute and confident. I would say that regardless of obstacles, even with small steps, I have come to do out of love, love and to believe in myself that I can do much more, regardless of people's opinions, regardless of impediments. I have come to look back and be grateful for what I have done and where I have come. To always compare myself with who I was some time ago, and each time to notice small but significant changes.
Changes that, perhaps on a larger scale, are not noticeable.
Everything is possible, but you have to have PATIENCE.
